Falling

A failure I celebrate
Betrothed to tragedy and hate,
Forgotten by mistake
And thrown out - shameful fake!

Of loss I holiday create
Chained to the guilt and lust,
Exposed like nakedness of fate
With all its pitiful disgust!

The pain and sufferring I cheer
Attached to mundane days,
When love and soul disappears
And only sorrow stays!

The failure, loss and pain - My Friends!
My smile goes to thee;
In helpful and supportive sneer
And falling to my death in glee...

Survival of the haters

Numb stare,
Steep fare
As I dare
To raise up.
When crowd says, "No!"
I say, "Yes!"
The words
Like swords
Pierce and confuse.
Last fuse
Blown,
Thrown with poems.
Forever forgotten
And rotten
In fear.
Oh, dear!
I think I have lost it,
And madness I've hosted.
Hoisted the love.
Replaced it by sadness.
Remained quite alive
But dead on inside
With heart beating loud
But empty of pride.
I resign from this life.
I am tired of fighting,
I hate to survive...

Creator

Joy in every one of you
The truth  and the transparency:
I see through you,
My fallacies all shine,
Like fiery pebbles in the world that I create for you.
A handful, an inifinity of souls
I make from templates, empty words.
I pick up pencils and my paints
And see what mind creates.
The whispers of your hearts,
They beat and someone loves, then someone hates.
As I fly above, entagled, driven forth by fate.
Sadness in everything I have to now erase.
A smile of each and everyone's forgotten face
I take with me. An empty template will remain.
And every time I feel remorse and shameful pain.
And then I start anew, destroy and recreate again.