Take me away

Take me away from here, this barren earth

Share in my sorrow, silence so hoarse

Stars are in front of us, darkness behind

Fighting my feelings, loosing my mind

Loosing your touch on me, take me away

Sensing just emptiness, take me away

Seconds, then years gone, take me away

Adrenaline spiking as I enter this fray

I see you where I was, as you walk on by

I am where all is lost, lost in my lie

The chasm of eternity opens its gates

I fly, run, trip, and fall, crash in its nets

I burn with reality, smolder with dreams

The senses have given up, ran out of steam

I crave only shadows, you want an escape 

Just take me with you, just take me away

I want your forgiveness, take me away

I will be relentless, take me away

The end is upon us, it is time to pay

Take me away from here, I beg and I pray

Forgiveness, forgotten, forever and gone

Take me away from here, or just take me on

Take me or not, you’ll make one last choice

I am past reality, lost mind and my voice

Take me away from here, right down to hell

Through human insanity, loud tolling bell

Through lacking of decency, simple and pure

Take me away from here, as I cannot endure

Take me away from here, this rotten earth

Take me away from here, or call me a hearse

Stars aren’t there anymore, darkness is all

Fighting and loosing, burn, crash and fall

I am walking away from here, not looking behind 

Naught but a shadow, no longer blind

I am walking away from here, hide, escape, run

When you’ll come to take me, I will be gone!

Yggdrasil

 Blind to this world

A mighty tree stands

Tall and bold

It’s canopy bends

Under the weight of souls

Each leaf screams and pleas

Each branch another holds

Above the river on its knees 

It hugs the world, and us it holds

A brazen blue of endless sky

A barren sun, look down

They see a giant amongst the stars

Forever to this hell it’s bound

Enduring storm of pain, alone

A tree that’s more akin to stone

A stranger keeping us alive

Inside its heart, with all its might

Deaf to the screams

Blind to this world

A mighty tree stands 

Tall and bold.

Listen

 Watch her

Behold her trembling lips

Observe and salivate

Consume the sway of perfect hips

Devour in your mind

The need to consummate

Desire, 

Restless liar

It tries to seal her fate

But fists won’t yield

And punches won’t hold back

Prevailed, as she rises

Within her outmost might

Your eyes averted,

Gaze - ashamed,

The truth has spoken

Feelings - spent,

She watches you, unbroken

Your torn and useless soul

Unhinged and so forgotten

Unwound, paused and foul

Watch her

With trembling, sweaty lips

Observe, relate

Respect, and cherish

And hold the silence as she speaks!

Too much talking

 You always talk about guns, 

And bullets.

Dead, bloody students.

Dead, bloody silence. 

Hollering, it stuns -

Your ignorance unburdened 

And impotence! 

No words in your defense!

No words left burning! 

My own rage yearns for voice.

Your lack of deeds is turning

Empty talks about guns,

And bullets

Into the bloody holes, and ruins!

Into a bloody mist of silence!

So hollering, world runs

Towards abyss consumed by violence!

Home

 I am coming home

Like mindless, undulating storm.

Like plague

Mistakes,

I make

On my eternal way.

I dare not to pray,

I dare not to think of home.

I am alone,

And bound to existence 

To remain unknown. 

It is a crippling condition, 

My soul’s rendition, 

My sickness and my path.

Through shattered glass

An undulating storm,

One day will bring me home!

Done, so done

 Pills shake

And tumble 

Down my throat.

Oh, humble Universe!

I fall and break 

In tiny parts

With every single verse,

With every single shot!

And nonetheless 

It’s all I’ve got.

And far too late

I finally stood up.

Too much of useless time

I waited for my fate!

And when it cometh

I will not obey and lie!

No longer will I bleat!

I won’t be swayed by all this shit!

No more of me will I endure!

Oh, plural Universe,

You are so pure!

Your touch of darkness is so sweet!

I stand amongst the deeds

That cannot be undone.

Pills in my hand like barrel of a gun

Slide down my throat.

“You are so old” - 

I’m told.

I am so done.

Fuck off. Applause. I’m gone!

Past reflections

 I am alone at last,

Hidden away by the breath of the sun

This too will pass

As through my past I run

Emotions fall like leafs

And feelings tickle nerves like rain 

I want to breathe 

But all I get is suffocating pain

My mind is rattled 

Increasingly so useless and forgotten 

A soul combatant 

I wage my war against myself

Abused the sanity itself

I am alone at last

Or so I think lost in my past.

Like it used to be

 Like it used to be

When it was ok

With our faults and glee

To the wind we all sway

To the rules we all bow

So small and so frail

All sharp teeth and a growl

In the hands of the hail

Derail,

Prevail,

Endure

A caricature 

I demure

You observe 

It’s a lure, and we serve 

Your smiles

Your bile

Your beliefs 

But our guile

Will best your desires

And the chains will dissolve

When this world we will solve

Like a puzzle of fate

And we hope that the hate

Will ebb and abate

With it’s burns

We are blind 

In our bones

We won’t find

The resolve to survive 

To fight for this life

Until we are free

From it’s ruthless grip

From your decree

From the leash and the clip

Until it’s ok again

To love and just be

To be loved, to be me

But it rains

And it’s gray

And it’s still 

I can’t feel

I won’t lie

There was the edge there

And now I just fly

When I try to defy

The gravity of your fake cries

In the face of the unfair 

In the eyes of the blind

Like it used to be,

Nowhere for me to find.

Farewell

 Farewell my only friend

I’ve burnt

And now I am spent

You gave me solace

I returned neglect

You loved me, more or less

However, us I won’t dissect

I ask forgiveness,

Kindly...

While you march through darkness

Blindly...

While you wreak havoc deep inside

Your own forgotten, wretched soul

I’ll reignite and more I’ll burn

To light your path

While there is none of us

Some dignity remains

It’s wick still burns 

While earth my ashes claims

When you have found your way

Then I will shine once more,

I’ll burn remainder of my soul

I’ll burn, and more, and more, I’ll burn

And then I am not, and you are all!

Deliver me

 Deliver me from evil

Deliver me from fear

Deliver me from hatred 

From doubt will you steer?

Adjusted and berated

My call, I beg, please hear!

Corrected, aberration

With deep sense deprivation 

Of selfish exultation 

Mistake, abused and lost

A shadow, banshee, ghost.

Deliver me from people

Deliver me from love

Deliver me, forget me

Oh mighty, from above!

Extort my bloody prayers

In throes of wet, bright lust.

Deliver me to my knees

With justice. Are you just?

With care. Do you care?

With love. Forget I asked.

You - bringer of despair,

You always speaketh last.

Deliver me onto you,

Deliver my revenge

My freedom, slices through you

Now, that is just exchange!

My blade of loss and agony

My gun of balled up rage

My hands, my claws, my everything 

Deliver my revenge!

Deliver me, abandon me

I care not a dime

Profusely and extensively 

Regardless and despite!

Deliver me, forgive me

My rage, the bile and spit

Deliver me,

Endure me,

Until my candle’s lit...