I still breathe

Drip, splash, another drip
As silence at my ears rips,
As madness crawls within,
It smiles gently, droolling, thin.
I smile back, I laugh and cry
And then I simply fall and die.
Noone to see the endless fight,
The infinite and piercing scream,
And pain that I endure within.
Confused reality, abate!
I'm tired of this senless hate,
Depressing thoughts,
And no way out.
One step forward, million steps back,
I stress, I weep, get ruined by a heart attack!
I lift myself again, n-th time I try,
But then my time runs out
And again I die.
Drip, splash, another drip,
As birds my empty body rip,
Deaf to the madness,
Its coarse frown, clean white teeth.
In sadness I realize that I still breathe.