Why?

I tried and couldn't
I ask why
My rage, thee pound at the door
Of my demise
The only hope I ever had
Is gone
And wind has swept
All leafs
And tired road is empty
So I leave
To never try again
But question stays unanswered
Why?
Attempted, failed, rose again
I tried and could not answer why
I stay embarrassed
As I try and I repeat my failure
The question is still there
Why should it have an answer?
Why?